I'm sure everyone has been there at different points and stages of our lives , where you get to your breaking point ,where you tell yourself i have had enough, those moments when your thoughts become like tidal waves taking you to the bottom of an ocean , where you wish time would stand still because you aren't prepared for the next day.
"I hold a beast, an angel and a madman in me " dylan thomas
That point when the beast and the madman have taking over and an eternal battle is going on in your mind.You just want to run away from home, get a moment of silence, or go to a place no-one knows you and start a fresh.
But, how do you run away from yourself, from your mind , is that even possible, some try to take their lives and some actually succeed, do they actually escape? to me that's a battle that's been lost.
The only form of escape is the music....
" when you're happy, you enjoy the music, but when you're sad you understand the lyrics"
.... i realized i can't actually leave because my battle is from within, when i ever i feel overwhelmed i take a long drive and turn up the volume, at that moment i can't hear anything else, feels like i'm the only one in the world like time has stopped waiting for me to give the go ahead whenever i'm ready, i hear all the different instruments that have harmonized to one sound, that is clarity for me, that my escape....
how do you escape ?